i really really really really wish that things weren't taken at such face value.
one thing i enjoy doing, is helping out; making someone's day, giving someone a good impression of my personality if they don't know who i am, or even just saying something that makes someone smile for 4 seconds out of their stressful 24 hour day. it's just what i do. not for show, not so i can brag about it later, but just.. because.
i kind of wish people would take those kinds of things to heart.
when i reach my hand out to people, i want them to know i'm not a sympathy giver, because i know how useless sympathy can be when things are going wrong. i'm honestly offering my attention and my ear to anyone who's feelin' lonely, or anyone who experienced something tragic. and i'm not some half-assed advice giver who pretends to care and give advice that would work for nearly any situation; when i ask to help, i genuinely care, and when i genuinely care, i give something everything i possibly can.
but you see, the sad thing is, some people are going to read this and think "oh, she's just being cliche like everyone else, and says these foolish things she hardly means for attention."
wrong.
i don't mind if this post changes your perception of me. i don't mind if it almost makes you dislike me more, because you may believe the words i'm claiming to be honesty are false. but if this post in fact makes you more open to the idea of talking to at least someone (whether it be me or not) about your issues, than i would genuinely admire you, and appreciate you for at least attempting to take what i'm saying to heart. god knows it's the worst possible thing to bottle your troubles up. but all i'm hoping you understand is that i'm here. i'm someone who's willing to listen and support you through the rambling, and the venting, and the times in life when you don't make any sense, and the tears, and the confusion, and all of the stuff most people can't allow themselves to care enough to handle. i've learned in life to give what you want to receive. (like my wonderful indian man ghandi says "be the change you want to see in the world.") and my man is so right! if i want people to reach out a hand to help comfort me, or try make me happy when i'm a mess, than of course that means that i'll do that for others. without a gosh darn doubt in my mind.
so, anyone who wants to talk? just send out a message, comment, text, post, phone call, or even catch me in person. one of the great joys i get out of life is gaining the opportunity to help. doesn't matter how well you know me, or if you even like me that much; i'll try do everything i can to help.