i'm very calm, yet even more tired.
the insanely obnoxious rain seems to soothe me yet keep me awake all at the same time.
i can't stop thinking, about everything. i don't even understand how i could be such a composed person nowadays with all that i'm going through, but i'd rather underreact than overreact in this case. (is underreact a word? no. okay.) i love love, but i hate it soo much at the same time. it can be beautiful, it can be ugly. it can be stupid, it can make you feel intelligent. it can be fun, it can be stressful. why on earth can't it decide! love just makes me feel like i'm either on top of the world or as shallow as the sea. thank god for music or else i would explode with all of these bottled up emotions unnecessarily clouding up my mind! WHICH REMINDS ME! i am PUMPED for thursday and friday of this upcoming week :) that is because on thursday, luke's band is playing and i'm going to go see him! he is an amazing singer that everyone should listen to, trust me. and on friday, i might possibly go to morp (so far i'm not going) and after is a partayyy at corey's like usual. yeah! then a week later, spring break will have arrived and i will be relieved. california with syd so we can work on our buried life video for avid, more time with dyl, more time to sleep like there's no tomorrow, and some time to relieve my over bearing stress :).
in case you're not too busy, you need something to take up 3 or so minutes, or you'd like to hear me sing (even though this is NOT my voice at its prime) then maybe you'd enjoy this.
ps. i'm usually not this gosh darn serious, and it just might be because i had to redo this song 1325347547 times before getting it just right :)
thanks for reading, onliners!
this is desiree srinivas signing off, and wishing you a wondrous night :)