1. It's kind of funny, I recently realized that you're the reason I got so into music. I don't know why, or how, but you're also the main reason I started writing songs, even though they weren't ever about you. I remember that one day in 8th grade when you showed me, on your ipod, something you wrote, and played entirely on your own, and I was extremely impressed. We weren't ever really close, except for that one period of time when things got very complicated, but I want to thank you more than anyone for getting me involved in one of my most favorite hobbies in the world.
2. Life would be 1,000,000 times easier without you around. I think you may be the only person I almost actually hate, and I don't even really know you.
3. I envy you. I envy your extreme belief, and I envy your ability to find such perfection in your life. I honestly believe the reason you and I aren't friends anymore, is because you've finally found yourself. I was best friends with a girl who was distraught, and troubled, still looking for hope and salvation. I was the one girl you could turn to since you were troubled, but now it's almost as if you don't need me at all whatsoever anymore; that's why we're so distant. I miss you terribly, but as mean and as selfish as this sounds, I miss the lost, imperfect girl who used to come to me for help and for laughs, instead of what a strong girl you are to this day. But either way, I'll always love you for who you are.
4. I'm soooo tired of missing you, it's unbelievable. I'm surprised that it's been this long already, and I still remember every little thing you used to do like it was yesterday. You know, I still actually have hope, no matter how pathetic I am. You've taught me so much, and you've done more than I think you'll ever realize. That kind of contributes to the fact that I'm still completely hooked, and I'll flat out admit it. I don't know what you did, but I can't help but care about you far more than I should. It's seriously killing me inside. I just wish you'd realize that.
5. You are probably one of the only girls who actually knows me genuinely, since you've been there through it all with me. Looking back, it's almost insane how much we've gotten ourselves into. One thing I love most about you is that I can tell you anything, and you never even judge me. That means the world to me that I can be 110% comfortable around you, always. I'm sure you know that there's so much more I could write, but I don't think pages full of words could do you justice. You're my best friend, you always have been, and you always will be. At the end of the day, when I have nothing left, or when everything goes horribly wrong, at least I know I'll have you. Thank you for being one of the greatest people in my life to this day, I love you so much for everything.
6. I still can't get over the fact that you can't get over yourself. That's why I know that this just won't work out. You're the only one who thinks otherwise. You're a chill kid, and I probably act like I dislike you more than I actually do, but that doesn't mean I'm not fed up with almost everything about you.
7. You are my only true, genuine hero. I miss you more and more every day. Since the day you passed, my life has gone entirely downhill. I never realized how much you had always been a necessity in my life until the day I had to fend off this complicated world without you. I won't let you down, now. You're the reason I'll keep singing, and I regret not doing it as much for you. I really hope you're proud of me. I love you.
8. You are one of the most hypocritical, unoriginal, most fake girls I think I will ever meet, and I hate it because I know that's not the girl you really used to be. Stop letting all of these little fabricated ideas control you. I want the old you back. More than anything.
9. You constantly shoot me down, and I'm tired of thinking of you in a negative way. I've always wanted a better bond with you, but I don't think I'm strong enough to ever do that with the attitude you have now.
10. You're a total sweetheart, and you're basically like a brother to me. You can make me laugh, you can cheer me up, and best of all, you were there for me when absolutely no one else was, and you actually dealt with me when I was at my all time low. But, one thing that's always killed me about you was that you only chose to talk to me when the time's right for you. I couldn't even come close to thanking you enough for everything you've done for me, and I love you so much for it, but I'm disappointed that I already know you'll just keep letting me down.
11. I really wish I could stop writing songs about you.
12. It's an absolute relief to know that you'll always be around. Ever since 5th grade, we've been close. We fight almost every day, but I don't ever worry about any of our stupid fights causing any end to our friendship. You've been there through thick and thin. You know me, since you've seen me at my worst and my best. It's awesome that I can spend so much time with you, without any worries. Your home IS my second home, and I wouldn't have our friendship any other way. Thank you for showing me what a true friend was, and thank you for never walking away no matter how hard times have been. I have a feeling we'll be this close until we're in the nursing home, STILL making fun of each other's stupidity. You're amazing. I love you more than anything.
13. You know, the day I finally got over you was a really good day. After all of the tears, all of the confusion, and all of the pain you caused me, I was so happy to have finally moved on. It was a long time ago, now that I look back on what we had, but after all of it I want to thank you. You were the first boy I had a thing with that got as somewhat serious as it did, and lasted that long. I'm sorry for all of the unfair pain I caused you just because I couldn't make up my mind. But I'd like you to know, that I really did like you more than I probably showed, due to the fact that I didn't know how to at the time. But I'm so glad you're happier now with your life, even though I'm not a part of it anymore. But I must admit on occasion, I miss the times when you and I were best friends. Oh, and I still can't listen to that song that you and I used to listen to all the time, because it reminded us of each other. I guess I was never strong enough to do that anyway.
14. You are annoying as heck, stupid, and just plain weird. But I'm gonna miss you more than anything when you go off to college next year. I just know it.
15. You are my sunshine! You're the one girl who always knows how to make my day. It's fun talking to you about life, and about old memories from past summers. I'm so proud to call you my best friend, and I'm glad you know you can talk to me about anything and everything. I love you so much, and I love that we've grown together. We've made each other stronger. You're so easy to talk to, and every time we're together is an adventure. You're one incredible girl. Please never leave my life, I don't think it would be at all as interesting without you around.
16. The only reason I'm still mad at you to this day, is because you weren't there when I needed you most of all.
17. I know we don't get to see each other much, but I want you to know you're a huge impact on my life. You're the reason I'm not as scared to get out in the world and do something, you're the reason I'm not a coward anymore, you're the reason I have perspective to just... live. Nothing I could ever do could repay you for that. No matter how distant we've become, just know I'll always care about you and I'll always be a phone call away. Thank you for being the strength and the push I needed all along.
18. I can get pretty upset with you at times, but you're actually one of my best friends. You're the only girl I know who I can talk to, who actually listens. You give me feedback, instead of just giving me sympathy. That's such a relief, and I know I'll always need you around. You're an incredible, strong girl. I love you for helping me calm down when I had a nervous breakdown in the girls bathroom. I love you for actually believing I'm not pathetic for the things I'm doing. I love you for being there for me, whenever I needed you.
19. I have always believed in you, and I still do to this day. Please don't forget that.
20. I care about you more than I care about most people, and I have no idea why, but I don't think you realize that. You are one of the stupidest, STUPIDEST kids I have ever met, but I would never dream of giving up our friendship. I couldn't live with myself if I knew something happened to you, and I didn't do enough to stop it. I just hope that one day you'll realize I do the things I do because I care. You even said yourself that I'm probably one of the only people out there who actually care about you, and it's true. You claim to care about me too, but I can't seem to believe it by the way you've been acting. Stop letting peer pressure get the better of you; that's not the kid I used to know. It's killing me now to drift apart from you, and I hate how much you've had to go through over the years. That's why I'm here for you. I always was, and I always will be. I made a promise.
21. I can't believe how much I was caught up with you. I thought you were perfect, almost, and I won't forget that summer that I spent basically every day with you. Thanks for the memories, and after a whole year, thank you for apologizing for what happened. It actually meant a lot to me.
Don't try guess who's who. Some people are on here twice, some not at all. This was just something for me, not anyone else. I'll probably do this more often, if I feel like I forgot someone, or have new opinions or feelings to vent. Thanks for reading.