I remember the first day we all came across just how close we all were. When we all decided to come up with corny nicknames, and of course the corny "group" name too. BK. Also known as Bakery Krew. I was Cupcake, Sarah was Cookie, Amanda was Brownie, and Chessie was Angelcake. To this day, looking back, it seems so strange that we decided all of that, but I sure as heck am glad we did. It was the kind of thing that we got so used to, we still use it today. I still have all of them in my phone under those names, and I love that it reminds me of our past, because that past is more special to me than I can compile into words. 
I don't think I've come across any girls quite like these three. It'd be an understatement; a complete, flat out understatement to tell you every little amazing detail about them, or at all how much they mean to me. They are the ones who have never betrayed me, or painfully disappointed me. They've never left me, they've never judged me. For the majority of my life, I was always unsure of who my true friends really were. Moving so much, I guess I never realized how alone someone can be without a stable, sturdy group of friends alike to sisters, or at least one genuine best friend. How lucky am I to have come across three? Now, I used to believe that knowing someone your entire life, growing up with them, making memories from birth with them, were what made them (for the most part) best friends. But the days I've spent with these guys, ever since elementary, have made up for every single minute I thought I'd never find anyone to amount to that. These three girls have bigger hearts than anyone else I've ever met. Most people probably don't see it, but I think I'm kind of lucky enough to see it more and more everyday.
The thing I love most about us 4, is that we all come from different groups, with different taste and different attitudes. Sarah's into cheerleading, and socializing, and she's the type of girl with a pretty smile, and an attitude that could break a boys heart. Amanda's definitely more into the out of ordinary. She socializes, but mostly with the same type of people. She's into concerts, weird clothes, she's definitely hooked on music day to day, and gets herself in pretty intense situations. Chessie's just sunshine. She's sort of in the same category as Sarah, but something about her is different. She's head over heels in love with a boy, and just a social butterfly. And then there's me. I'm not sure what you could categorize me as, but I think I'll leave it in the "Other" category. But do you see what I mean? All of our attitudes rub off on each other, and that helps build our character as people. Good friends are ones that help you WANT to become a better person, not just push you to be one. One's that admit to making the same mistakes you do, not just look over them. One's who don't just care enough to do what you want to do, but care enough to watch out for you and fight back every once in a while. I knew from the day I met these girls that they weren't gonna bail on me like everyone else can, and in some cases have. Spending every weekend, and every day of summer with the same people may get boring to most people, but to me, it's a blessing, and an unexpected adventure.
Losing them would be something I don't think I'm strong enough to handle. Memories, and inside jokes, and pictures, and videos, and every small seemingly unimportant detail about our friendship is everything to me. I won't forget the old summers we would spend cooped up in Amanda's room, or the random trips to Walgreens "just 'cause we can", or the all-nighters we always pull, or the struggles we've all had to go through. Elementary school brought us the first experience of growing up, and figuring out what the heck we were gonna do about leaving little things behind, while starting to care about our image, and who we were friends with. Junior High School brought family drama, and a huge reality check with our character, as well as strong bonds between all of us, no matter how much emotional, and physical pain some of us had to face. High school brought excruciating heartbreaks, and never ending questions about life itself, and what we were all gonna do when we were older. If there were anybody else out there that I could have shared all of these struggles and gains with, I'm sure as heck glad it was these three. I really mean it when I say I don't know where I'd be without them. The day that they're not around as much as they are in my life now, is a day I really hope I never see.
Amanda was always there to help me vent, and was someone I could spill my life story out to. She could always make me laugh, no matter how stupid she could be. I'm so glad that she's been someone I could believe in, and who could believe in me. We've been through so much, and I can't believe we're still going strong to this day. Sarah was my first best friend in Arizona. She and I had started a kiddish band in Elementary, and who would have believed we'd still be attached at the hip to this day. A lot of factors about her have changed, but she's always gonna be that drama queen at heart in my eyes, and I just can't imagine her out of my life, ever. Chessie was someone I never would have thought I could have gotten this close to over the years. I guess she's always been around, always brightening my day, and always making me feel like I was worth something, which is incredible, to me. I love how we can talk about anything, and that she's so easy to talk to. All three of their houses are my second homes. All three of their families I consider my own. At this point, I don't even think of them as friends. I consider them sisters. And sisters are for life.
I like that we borrow each others clothes, yet never manage to return them. I love that we scream at each other, and call the other every freakin' name in the book. I like that we make stupid videos, act inappropriately, and take too many pictures. I like that we try to do spontaneous things, and that plans we make always fall apart. I like the way we are. No matter how broken we can seem, I wouldn't trade what we have for anything, ever. If there's anything I want them to know, it's that I love them for everything they don't even know they've done for me. So, here's to the girls who can always cheer me up and make me laugh. Here's to the girls who never seize to make my life so much brighter. Here's to the girls who probably know me a little more than I know myself... and always will.
Please never leave my side.
I love you Amanda Rian Walsh.
I love you Sarah Elizabeth Helterbran.
I love you Chessie Marie Fifield.