1. your entire life and everything about it does not belong on the internet; i'm begging you to at least leave some mystery in your life, and to just let her go. you're both better off on separate paths. i sympathize for you with your issues and broken heart, but i fear for you because some things you say genuinely scare me ):
2. i feel like i understand you more than any of your friends, but even at that, i don't understand a thing about you. you're full of mystery, and i feel like that's why i'm still around, just so i can figure it out. you make me feel like a little kid sometimes! we're so close, yet not nearly as close as we used to be; so in sync, yet so incredibly lost at the same time. hope to keep you near this christmas season.
3. SHUT. UP.
4. you've matured so much, and have turned more and more into the person we both know you could be (which i hope you're doing for yourself). i'm glad to know i contributed to the amazing person you are today, and maybe one day, it'll play out for us for the better. thank you for always being here for me, and dealing with me whether i was on top of the world, or in the most vicious moods of all. you're my rock, and i always find my way home to you.
5. i'm going to have best friend withdrawal when you're miles away ): aaaaaaahhhhh
6. you SMOTHER me.
7. i know i deserve better than to let someone like you to even be apart of my life, but i see hope in you.
8. though i haven't been able to make much time for you, i want you to know you mean SOOO much to me, and i feel like a mother bear and you're my cub, because i always want to protect you and be there for you! i promise you and i will spend some time this break talking things out and catching up because i love you long time<3
9. he's right, you're crazy! soooo crazy! i don't understand how you even MANAGED to get a boy as good as him for so long, but i'm so glad you're not suffocating him any longer. you have probably one of the worst judgments of character of anyone i've ever met in my entire life, which makes sense, because you don't have any friends. at the end of the day, i hope you're proud of the girl you are, because whoever the hell she is is the only thing you'll have left at the rate you're going. oh, and by the way? someone should buy you a dictionary for christmas. or a guide to proper usage of punctuation. cause damn girl, your speech is reDONKulous. have a good life i guess?
10. you make me feel like a little girl again, with these stupid butterflies and silly silent awkward moments where i don't know what to do but smile and blush too much. the rush of mystery in what tomorrow will bring is what's keeping me holding on. who knows what this could become?
11. i wish i knew who you were these days, because sweetheart, i have NO idea. of all of the people i know who fall aimlessly in the deep depths of peer pressure, you'd win the gold medal. i hope once all of these stupid 'finding who you are' shananigans come to an end, you'll realize we all knew who you were months ago, before your utter downfall. and of course, regardless of how much you deserve it, we'll be here at the end of the day to catch you.
12. i love you like A LOTTT and i think your "girlfriend" (for a lack of a better word) is absolutely awesome! which is great cause you're awesome too so you match! thanks for being here for me, because i really need someone like you in my life all the time. i'm always here for you, from late night deep conversation to hanging out and doing stupid, stupid things for the hell of it.
13. i really really enjoyed getting lied to my face, especially when i least expected it. you know, it probably would have hurt less if you just told me straight up i wasn't good enough for you and your enormous ego.
14. you're beautiful, and i could only wish that you and i would someday end up the best of friends.
15. stop playing your stupid games with me pleaseee, it hurts my feelings :(
16. you once told me, "anything ever worth it isn't easy." and you know, considering the past year we spent working so hard for something we thought was worth it at the time, it really should not have played itself out the way it did. i still think friendships in our cards, but if you'd like to continue to fix yourself on the idea that i did you so wrong, then maybe not. at least i can say i tried.
17. for being one of the greatest, funniest, most random girls to ever walk the face of the planet, i hope you know you deserve SO much better than what you've been given. it's not often that i come across pretty girls with pretty hearts to match, because pretty hearts get smashed into pieces and made all gross and ugly by rotten boys with pretty faces. don't let those stupid boys ruin yours! you're stronger than every last one of them, and can overcome anything and everything<3
18. you make me buffalo chicken dip, sit with me to make fuzzy blankets, sing with me in the car, and dance with me about 90% of the time regardless of if there's music or not. thanks for being the best friend i've always needed when times get rough<3 you're perfect. and i know you can make it through anything, because you're stronger than anyone i've ever met. thanks for everything sunshine :)
19. i listen to that song, and think of you. it makes me smile, but it makes me cry. not because it reminds me of dark times when i was alone, but of the good times. the old times.
20. if you didn't enjoy using me for various little things, we might actually have been really really good friends. oh well.
21. when we were in junior high, i stuck pencils through your afro. now in high school, i still stick pencils through your smaller afro.... but i guess we're best friends now, so that's what makes all the difference. hahahahahaha i love you<3
22. one day, i'll understand why you were thrown into my life at the exact time you were. until then, i wont take for granted your presence for one single minute.
more & more to come.