at this point, i really could care less if you think i'm the most vain human being on the face of this planet, especially due to the fact that you're far from perfect as well, so suck it.
i'm sick and tired of being thrown under a microscope every waking moment of my life to please people who DON'T EVEN MATTER.
it's not gonna make my life any better to know that any of you just might not hate me for god knows what reason.
i've WASTED all this time trying to make up for a mistake I DIDN'T EVEN MAKE, and try regain a reputation I DIDN'T EVEN TARNISH with you people who live and BREATHE judgments of others every waking moment of your dreary lives!
i've taken pride in the idea that i will NEVER take advice or truly listen to a hypocrite; which is why you can all assume the worst of me as much as you want, call me a liar, selfish, idiotic, "not worthy", a drag, WHATEVER your little hearts desire!
but at the end of the day, that's not gonna change how I feel, or how HE feels. sorry.
there is only ONE person's opinion that matters, and he LOVES me because he KNOWS what i'm about, while on the outside, all of you feed off of rumors and assumptions because that's all you ever use to survive. i'm a decent person, ask anyone who actually takes the time to meet someone new and actually gave me a chance, and LEARN FROM THEM, instead of putting every face on this earth on either your pretty little love or bash list.
so go ahead; hate me all you please. i've tried with all my strengths and energies to get you all to accept me, but i'm beginning to accept the fact that it is humany impossible, because you've already set in stone whatever it is you plan on portraying me as. feel free, please, to accuse me of things i've never done, nor will ever do, and assume that one measely time i get upset overpowers and outshines the 40583485297634975394754279 other times i PROVED how good of a girlfriend and an overall friend/PERSON i am.
i tried for far, far too long to get "you people" to like me, because i knew how important it was to gain back that trust, respect, and admiration i so long (for some god awful reason) wanted.
but what's the use of having the respect of people who currently are not even worth respecting?
you know, i used to see the world's potential in all of you. what happened?
let's make a deal: i let you live your life, and you stay the HELL out of mine.
sound good? cool.